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Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 03:53:55 GMT

i have moved! this is my new home . please do leave ur URLs so that i could add you in.

Monday, November 07, 2005

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 01:26:35 GMT

this cough is killing me :( !!!
wasn't able to sleep well...

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To laugh is to risk appearing the fool.
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.
To reach out for another is to risk involvement.
To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self.
To place your ideas, your dreams, before a crowd is to risk their loss.
To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To live is to risk dying.
To hope is to risk failure.
But risks must be taken, because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.
The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing, and is nothing.
They may avoid suffering and sorrow, but they cannot learn, feel, change, grow, love, live.
Chained by their attitudes, they are a slave;
They forfeited their freedom.
Only a person who risks is free.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 10:03:39 GMT

~~~pug yoda~~~

i walked amiel few days ago and he could almost drag me around the street. he barks with other dogs as if he's bigger than them :)

amiel is also excited and can't wait much longer with his pasalubong from gorgeous!!!

~~~gift from gorgeous~~~

Thursday, October 27, 2005

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 21:03:45 GMT

~~~ simple lang ~~~

habang nadadagdagan ang options mo sa buhay lalong gumugulo...
habang dumadami and opportunities lalong nakakalito...

simple lang naman ang nais ko sa buhay...

ang gumising sa umaga na ikaw ang kasama
pag mulat ng mata ikaw ang nakikita
and at the end of the day
uuwi ako sa taong kahit na gaano pa kasama ang naging araw ko
na kahit gaano naging kabigat ang buong maghapon ko
'tong taong 'to would make me feel that everything will be okay...

simple lang 'di po ba?
yung gaya ng dati, tayong dalawa...
baket hinde na pwede???

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 15:05:12 GMT

~~~ week blast ~~~
it's almost midnight and i am still in the office. been here since monday. my god, work has been tremendously freakin' bloody damn hard (hehehe). glad everthing went ok just few hrs ago. well, i also had the chance to talk to one of my best friends through call using ym (she's in london with her family). funny 'coz we still laugh to death to those silly nonsense things. we are really good at that - lalo na sa panglalait sa iba (hehehe, pasenxa na po napagkakatuwaan lang namin kau). anyways, im gonna see them here in the philippines a week from now that's why i am also excited for this long weekend holiday coming ahead. my auntie and uncle from cali will also arrive for the undas. my boss already signed my vacation leave. can't really believe it! ill be off from office for more than a week.

another opportunity for me to look forward to this week is ill be having an interview this coming thursday. let me narrate what happened. they've been trying to contact me through my cp and @ office but ive been very buzy lately. finally, they were able to contact me this morning @ office after having few attempts @ my cp. they asked me if i could drop there this week and i said my available time would be on the 7th of nov since ill be away from manila. it was fine with them then i asked how am i gonna go there. the lady gave me instructions and i was not really paying much attention to her. damn! i was so sleepy that time. then i asked her the address and slowly i wrote it down and was shocked that it was in fort boni. i said: are you referring of fort boni where fitnessfirst is located? oh my god! it's near our place! then she said that in case i am free this week ill just text her so that she could arrange the sked...... i am really dying to have this job coz if im on it, it only means that ill be having my career back! oh god, this i ask for my christmas present. i promise ill be good. please give this to me coz i feel it'll be a good start for me to change my life.

been into tennis nowadays! i love tennis! and i am loving it deeper and deeper. glad that some friends are willing to play with me during my upcoming vacation.

ill be seeing amiel soon too. we'll be having a week long of quality time. mama will also visit me this sat with my cousin and niece. i will tour them around the city before we all go to our province.

work is fine. school is fine and i am all set for my defense proposal. but emptiness still resides in me. loneliness takes the pain away little by little...

~~~~~~~~~~~
Ang mga puno't halaman
Ay kabiyak ng ating gunita
Sa paglipas ng panahon
Bakit kailangan ding lumisan?

Sunday, October 23, 2005

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 23:31:33 GMT

~~~ magmamahal muli ~~~

umaasang magmamahal muli
ang buong akala ko'y sya na
kabiguan ang napala
panghilom ng puso'y hindi madali
ang malaman mahal mo'y
walang pag ibig sayo

ang umasang magmamahal muli
syang magagawa
huwag hanapin ang pag ibig
ito'y darating sayo
aking naranasan....

ohhhhhh
ang pagluha tulad ng sa ulan
ang umasang magmamahal muli
syang magagawa
huwag hanapin ang pag ibig
ito'y darating sayo

~~~~~~~
i prayed hard that i may never feel pain again everytime i learn new things about you and your girl but i do still suffer a lot. i am still crying. i know acceptance is the only solution and ive been into that state couple of months now.

just knowing that you've found your life with her and you're ready to grow old with her will help me to move on with my life. grab the chance to be happy again coz seeing you happy will make me more happy :)

Friday, October 21, 2005

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 07:39:57 GMT

~~~ tgif ~~~

after totally depriving my self for 4 weeks from all sorts of carbo and sweets including fruits, i made my first sip of soda during lunch today. mikyang, stitch and i are also planning to drop by @ hot shots for a charboiled burger (hmmnnn, im totally excited!) and after this i will go to rockewell with my friends for a buckets and buckets and lots of buckets of b-e-e-r!!!! t-g-i-f!

have a great weekend guy! mwah!

Monday, October 17, 2005

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 00:21:49 GMT

~~~ txt galore ~~~
i enjoyed my unlimited txting since last friday! i have a cousin who loves 2 4ward txt mssgs 2 me eversince globe had their promo of unlimited txt. every morning before she goes to school she never fails to 4ward a mssg to me (and im glad they are not allowed to bring their cps @ school, definitely she'll flood my inbox!). anyways, i seldom reply to her kc first, i don't care that much for 4warded mssgs and most of the time im 2 lazy to txt back kc i always call and talk 2 them using my other unlimited sim.

i gave a try of subscribing to it and made a groups for my globe friends. i had 5 groups all in all and each group consists of 15 members. so, i started 4warding mssgs to them and i enjoyed it a lot! most replied with their funny and silly jokes 2! i even got the chance to talk and made a simple chit chats with my long lost friends and with my previous classmates during highschool, collage,and even with my post grad classmates :). ive lost keeping track of my time also and didn't notice na ive been txting na pala for 4-hr straight!

one of the funniest mssgs i got from my cousin:
10 risons pag d
nagrply ang
ktxt mo!

10. nsa CR
9. off cel
8. eating
7. wlang nresiv
6. bc
5. 2log
4. kuripot
3. tmad
2. wlang load
1. kinuha n ni LoRd

tawa tlaga ako ng tawa when i got this. one of the managers replied to me after 5 hrs and this was our convi:

him: 11. naiwan celfon sa bahay
me: 12. memory loss, matanda na kc
him: 13. epek2 ng kakadiet kaya nagttxt
me: hehehehe

some even asked if im leaving na kaya ako txt and some said ala ako magawa.
uuhhmmm, aside from free txt, that's my way of reaching out and telling you guys that u'll always be remembered :)

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 14:05:54 GMT

~~~ u can't please 'em all (part 2) ~~~

there's this person who knows my deepest secret in life. i prefer to keep it as a secret so that things will not be that complicated in a way, th0 i don't really give a damn kung malaman man ng lahat since this is my life and that was the choice i made - no regrets at all! my point is, i kn0 people are not that stupid to kn0 things that are worth sharing to others and things that are better to be kept as is - cguro for the sake na rin of the people who are involved. this person never heard of anything from me nung narealize ko na sinabi nya rin sa iba abt this thing. it was like im a chicken walkin around the town and this person is taking my feathers off from me one by one with every words na inilalabas nya till there's nothing left to cover me. nasaktan ako and sobrang sakit yung naramdaman ko th0 i didn't blame this person kung ginawa nya un. and i dont even care kung ganun xa! well, sana lang kc inisip nya na we entrusted this thing sa kanya and sana lang alam nya kung ano yung dapt gawin in return and how to treat sensitive things like that.

there's this friend na kahit we're not that close i still consider her as a good friend. at first, i do kn0 somthing that she doesn't kn0 yet. kahit na naaawa ako sa kanya and nagmumukha na xa tanga in connecting those gossips from other guys e i never made that confirmation to her because i do RESPECT the thing that you said to me that it would be better if you will be the one to tell her about this.

madaling mamintang ng tao and get paranoid KUNG yung ibinibintang mo e ganun din ang gagawin mo in case you are in that position. be careful of what you think who you are dhil madami kang hinde alam na tanging nakakaalam lang ay ang mga taong nakapaligid sau. be careful also with your actions. u may not confirm things but it could be obviously implied thru ur actions and words as well.

i gained respect from others by respecting them in return. th0 i know, i can't please them all and i dont care if ur one of them...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
guys, im sorry if i have acted this way. this is strange actually. i just wanna let it out. ala rin naman ako ibang mapaglalabasan kundi d2 lang sa hiding place ko. i will be moving into a new webbie and will just let u kn0 once ok na yung sa kabila.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
pic below was taken this afternoon @ the closing ceremony of the test eng'g olympics

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Beginning today I will take a moment to step off the beaten path and to revel in the mysteries I encounter. I will face challenges with courage and determination. I will overcome what barriers there may be which hinder my quest for growth and self- improvement and determination.

Monday, October 10, 2005

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 00:37:35 GMT

~~~ ME and eeyore ~~~

i had a very long weekend and it started last friday. i took a day off last friday and all i did during the weekend was sleep sleep sleep and sleep. my friends asked me to go out th0 but i couldn't coz i dont wanna drink beer and eat foods as well. anyways, when i've got nothing to do i always find my self cleaning and cleaning around my place. i saw ME and she was really madungis na. ME is the very first gift i have given to gorgeous. i bought this pa since college and gave it to her the day we first met. so, pinaliguaan ko si ME and here she is now

~~~~~ ME ~~~~~

this morning, i was also surprised with the cute pasalubong marang gave me. maraming maraming salamat po marang sa cute and unique na eeroye! sobra ako natuwa kc ang cute nya talaga and ang landi nya hehehe... kumukutikutitap pa xa har3

this is my unique eeyore. yes, this is eeyore but i think he's a gay. i think he's bakla hehehehe. cute noh!

o ayan super close na sila ni ME

saka nalang ako post, pag feel ko na...

i want to breakfree!!!